It's already come and gone...

And I forgot...didn't even notice it because I was at Micah's 4 month appt., gleefully taking his photo as he safely rolled around the exam table, nursing him while they gave him his first shots, then I was out faint on the floor with my head in his pediatrician's lap (I fainted when Kyle received his shots at his 2 week appt.). And I didn't once think about the two babies we lost between Kyle and Micah. Yesterday was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. I always remember around the time I lost them and on their birthdays. It still makes me cry on a good day. So to all of you who have lost your little ones, my heart goes out to you.

Kevin commented that Micah seemed to be growing up faster than Kyle did, after I told him I'd scheduled Micah's 4 month appointment. It's true. I didn't think we would survive Kyle's first year (you were one tough infant buddy)! Micah's first year seems like it is slipping away. I really wanted to savor his infancy and I have as much as possible, but I've really been in survival mode since before he was born and it's frustrating.

Thankfully, it looks like some stability may be coming our way, as we get to move in to our new house on Monday! We won't close until later in the week, but our lease is up on Tuesday and our storage bill comes due on Monday, so the owners graciously are allowing us to take occupancy on Monday. Can I tell you what a relief that is? There is no way to describe how hard these past 3 months have been. Kevin will sometimes comment that it seems to have gotten easier, but for me it's just that it feels normal now. It's still one of the hardest experiences I've ever gone through and I am still treading water.

Micah is 4 months old, 16 lbs, and 27 inches long. He is happy, still so happy! This week he started rolling and now he rolls all over the house; it's crazy that one day all he can do is lay on his back and the next he can move! Our pediatrician said he can start solids whenever we want, but I think I'll hold off till he's 6 months. However, with the new development of rolling has come a regression in sleeping. Ugh. Kevin has been so faithful to help me with the nights. Micah is up a lot and it's been a really tough almost 2 weeks now of sleeplessness. Thankfully, he is once again napping during the day (yes, he wasn't napping and we were both miserable for a couple days there). So, my assumption is that night time sleep should be coming around again soon. He loves to grab at things and is continually enamored with Kyle.

Kyle is doing better and better. We've been working on listening with him for the past several weeks and both of us have noticed a real change in him this week with listening and responding to us the first time we ask/inform him of something. It's wonderful! Also, it seems Kyle has been making friends at preschool, despite our initial misgivings (Taryn is my friend, I tell other kids I don't want to be their friends. What he forgets is that Taryn is moving back to Texas in May, lol.). Kyle has started sounding out words, like overnight. On our trip to AZ, we were in the Nashville airport and he looks up as we walk through security and says "Mom, why does that say "Exit"?". Instead of answering him, I ask "How do you know it says "Exit"?" and he sounds out the word to me Ehhh-x-ihhh-tt. I'll hear him in his car seat in the back saying and sounding out letters on signs as we are stopped at traffic lights. IT's fantastic; I remember doing those things as a kid when I was learning how to read! Lately, he'll hear Kevin and me talking about something "adult" and ask us what we're talking about. Then we'll explain it to him and he is truly interested about what's going on outside of him and his world. This is a totally new development for Kyle!

Our trip to AZ was fantastic. AZ still feels like home to me, but as we were getting ready to leave, I realized that wherever Kevin and the boys are, that is home for me right now in my life. It was so good to get back to Kevin; I still have my "I hate Nashville" days, but they aren't everyday, as they were in the beginning. I know we didn't get to see everyone we wanted to while we were in AZ, but we are coming back at Christmas for a longer period of time, and Kevin will be with us! We will be spending a couple days in Tucson, hopefully over a weekend so we can see some of you at church.

Lastly, we have found a church. It's a non denominational church, about the size of our church in Tucson. I don't know that we LOVE it the way we love Vineyard, but it's good. I think it's good for all of us to have a place we are going consistently and to be building community there. It is right down the street from our new place! And, I love Wed. night church service; it's like a breather during the week to reconnect and get some prayer and encouragement. Also, no dinner duty, yea!

As October winds down, Kyle will be finishing up his soccer season, we have a few Fall festivals to attend where the boys will be dressing up and collecting candy (Kyle is going as a soccer player, and Micah is going as a horse. If I had been really on top of things, I would have convinced Kyle to be a cowboy this year, that would have been cute!), and we are looking forward to a visit from Grammy!

If you don't have plans for Thanksgiving, won't you join us here in Nashville? Our house is open and we would love to see you :o)! That's all the news I have for tonight.